Seminary Graduation Night...at home.

Tonight was Seminary graduation.
Needless to say, Kathryn did not attend.
A disappointment for both me and her, but mostly me, I'm sure. Aside from the fact that she is graduating high school a year early, she still only really went to Seminary her Freshman year. Her Sophomore year she didn't have 80% attendance and then this year, she just dropped out after Christmas.
It makes me desperately sad to know how much of the promptings of the Holy Ghost she could have used during those times in her life and just passed on it. She's seeing a few of those moments now, but now, it's too late. The opportunity has come and passed and all that is left is a regret.
I try to not dwell on the negative of it. The past few months she has made enormous strides towards getting her life in order and preparing herself for many needed opportunities and blessings. And because of some of her good choices, she is being seen differently by others, me and herself. She's finally being able to get past some rough times.
Of course, there are the set backs from rumors, gossip and those at school who just have nothing better to do than to make life miserable for those who have made some undesirable choices. But like I have stressed to Kathryn, these are part of the consequences. I warned her it would be the most difficult to endure. She feels bad that it's harder for some in her circle of acquaintances to allow her to repent and move on than others.
Tonight is one of the 'consequences' nights. She can't be where she should be because she didn't do what she needed to, to be there. So now, tonight, she feels regret. Too bad she couldn't SEE or FEEL this earlier, while it still mattered.
Another hurdle to jump over...
But she did have a fun date last night...a great LDS young man in the stake...preparing for a mission in October. He knows nothing of Kathryn's past - just the 'good her' now. It's nice to see her enjoying the results of repentance and seeing what the Lord had in mind for her in the first place.
Hopefully, this will be just the beginning of the 'new and improved' Kathryn Lott.