Sunday, January 21, 2018

Visits to Nana's Office

I LOVE when these three come to see me at my office.  They love playing doctor and checking each others teeth.  Plus, they make me laugh and laugh.  Such happy kids..

Now this one is an explorer.  She likes to see what makes things work and how things happen.  I love how Lucy is so hands on and wants to be just like her older siblings.

Breathing in Some Life

After some very difficult days over the past few weeks, Del thought it best to some how get Shirley outside the 4 walls of her room.  She has literally not been out of her room in over 5 weeks, let alone outside.  And the air seemed to breathe life into all of us.  We took her for a walk up and down the street and allowed the kids to play outside around her, which seemed to bring her great joy.

Emerson wanted to race Grandma Shirley -he in his car and she in her electric wheel chair.  Emerson won.

These two LOVE each other - and watching them play together is pure joy.

Just like all the other grand children, Evie has discovered the chickens.  She's amazed by their comings and goings and tries to grunt at them each time she sees one.

She's loving being outside more and more

Is the cutest picture ever?? Exploring...

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Just Had Another One of These

This year marked 58!!  Do you know how close that is to 60??

My sweet husband sent me the most beautiful flowers for my special day.

This sweet young patient shares the same special day as my birthday.  So when she came for her appt, she came baring gifts - flowers, a beautiful scarf, and a yummy chocolate cake.

Dr Henao and the staff gave a yummy fruit cake and then some sweet smaller gifts - candy, gum, manicure set and then we all went to Outback for lunch.

I snitched a bite before starting back to work after lunch. SOOO good.

The New First Presidency of the Church

President Russell M. Nelson, President Dallin H Oaks and President Henry B. Eyring.
We are so blessed in this day and age, to have NO, absolutely NO politics involved in the re-establishment of the First Presidency after the passing of our Prophet, President Monson.  We are blessed to know that our Father in Heaven and His son, Jesus Christ, are in charge of leading and directing this church, THEIR church. And that nothing in this world can interfere or change THEIR laws and process of leadership changes.
The Church is true - and I love each and everyone of these men in the presidency and in the Quorum of the twelve.  We should be getting two new apostles shortly; if not before General Conference, then AT General Conference in April.
The Lord truly loves us.

Sunday, January 7, 2018

It Won't Be Much Longer

Del's mother, Shirley, has been with us since March of last year.  When she first arrived, she was pretty frail from the long drive, and in a lot of pain.  It took her a good three weeks to get stable and finally able to move around and enjoy her new surroundings.  She was pretty much able to come and go as she pleased, moved from inside the house to outside and was able to move about the house getting her own food, joining us to watch movies and play outside in the summer.
But just over the past two months, she has taken a severe downhill spiraling turn in her health and is now considered bedridden and completely dependent on someone to help her with all things - even going to the bathroom. She is incoherent many times in her conversations and has to give much thought and consideration in her communications with us, mostly being able to use single words at a time to get her thoughts across  The pain is continual for her, but not debilitating...and she still maintains a pretty good sense of humor at times. In talking with her about current events and daily comings and goings, she cannot carry on a normal conversation: it is very limited as to what she can remember and what she can say.  But if you are to discuss genealogy or her childhood or even up to 3-4 years ago, her conversation can flow very freely and semi easily, with only an occasional  need to focus harder.
There have been MULTIPLE times where Del has been sure that her leaving this world would be within days, maybe even hours.  I have felt the same.  There has been much conversation between Del and his brothers about the future plans of her funeral and the things that will be needed at that time.  And Del's youngest brother, Brian, even came for a 24 hour visit last week, knowing it will be his last time he sees her in this life.
Last week, Del installed a door bell ringer in her room to be able to push and call for us when she needs us.  Last night, she rang the bell 7 times, and only twice was to use the bathroom.  The other times were for emotional and or discomfort needs.  Del attended to her every need with patience and much love.  I was amazed with his calm and resolve to make sure all her needs were met.  I woke up this morning exhausted and with a headache.  Del woke up without a single complaint.
Now, all meals are brought to her.  All visits to the bathroom are with her clinging to either Del, me or even Lexi.  We have all stepped up as care givers, knowing her time with us is short.  She no longer goes out of the home and is even bedridden except for the maybe once a week walk around the living room Del will make her take for exercise.
Del's release as Bishop has been timely, as now, he is with her most hours of the day.  I have been called to serve in the nursery with him, and will have to cover for him on most Sunday's as she needs him more and more.
Shirley's presence in our home has brought a variety of mixed emotions and experiences.  I cannot say that all have been noteworthy or pleasant.  Being a care taker is difficult and can try the patience of even the best of us.  Shirley is a story teller and a rambler.  That is hard for Del, where as I LOVE to listen to her stories and have literally sat there for hours.  But  in the early hours of the morning, or the middle of the night, when all she wants is comfort, I tend to become weary and Del's compassion and love shines bright and consistent. We both know that Shirley is with us to live out her last days.  The benefit of having her here is in the sharing of some very spiritual experiences she and Del have been able to share during some of her most difficult moments.  Del will tell me of angels attending his mother and of her seeing specific spirits surrounding her.  I'm thrilled for these moments Del is sharing with her and that he will have to remember long after she is gone.
It won't be much longer.  How long?  We do not know.  But it will be soon.
Patience, much love and tenderness will be our guarantee of no regrets. 
And I want no regrets.

Thursday, January 4, 2018

What Matters Most??

So, after my last post, you might pose the question..What Matters the Most??
I guess it depends on who you ask??  Or should it?
It should be God...of course, it should be God.
But for those not Christian, or even members of the church, what matters most to them?
Family...but that's where even members of the church lose focus of what order things should be in in matters of importance.  Even God has asked us to place Him first - and He takes care of the rest.
So, in my priorities for this year - I'm not able to do all I have been able to do in the past.  So, I will do what matters most.
And God matters most.
So first, I dedicate my life to Him - my time, talents and all that I have been blessed with.
Full tithe, my devoted time on the Sabbath, my temple attendance , my church callings and my blessing, either temporally or spiritually.
Then family - Del being first on the list, I must give him more of my time and devotion.  I have to make him directly after God.  Spend more time with him - make and reach our goals together - be more a part of his life instead of 'living and doing my own thing'. I'm very selfish when it comes to my 'free' or 'undedicated' time.  I'm an introvert - like being safe in my own little cocoon.  But I must be part of him.  So, I will stretch myself out of my comfort zone.
And Del and I have set some dreams and goals for this year; especially concerning our home, yard and businesses.  We want to finally build Del his dream shop/garage and then turn our current garage into a media/game room.  We need to replace the tile in our home with hardwood floors, paint the house, and then change and add light fixtures to the kitchen and dining area.  We want to get back to a garden - and then build a patio and fire place area.
To add to my goals this year..

1- I want to go somewhere I have never been   AND
2- do something I have never done.

More details to follow after I have given those two points more thought and consideration.

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

After Much Thought

Every year, I try and ponder what it is that I want to do or accomplish this next year that maybe I didn't get done THIS year.  But most often, I can't even remember what I wanted to accomplish the previous year OR, it's the same thing year after year - ie...lose weight, attend the temple more often, prayers, scripture reading etc etc...
But this past year, I found that in trying to accomplish all I had put on my list, I became more and more disappointed at what I wasn't able to do, for one reason or another; mostly because of my health, menopause and anxiety attacks and stress.  I felt cut off at the knees in most things that I attempted to do.
But in my studying of the Ensign, the Book of Mormon and a few other LDS articles, I came across a very poignant quote from our dear Elder Robert D Hales, who recently passed away, that after MUCH thought and prayer, I have chosen to make my motto for this next year - and life in general.
   "When you cannot do what you have always done,
      then you only do what matters most."
That, I can do. Without guilt, without disappointment, without excuses, and without apology.